In January I mentioned that my doctor, Dr. T., found what she thinks is a nodule on my thyroid. She wanted me to have an ultrasound then to explore it further, but since my blood work came back fine, she told me I could wait eight weeks, and she would check it again.
I went last week for the follow up visit, and I was bummed that the nodule was still there. Dr. T. said it felt about the same, and she ordered strongly suggested that I have the ultrasound as soon as possible. She told me she didn’t want to scare me, but she just had two women patients in the last month, who were in their 20’s who had thyroid cancer. She said she had felt the same type of abnormality on their thyroid as she was feeling on mine.
Before I freaked out, Dr. T. told me to relax (easier said than done), and nine times out of ten, it is nothing. She said it could be stress, an odd shaped thyroid, or a harmless bump. Dr. T. said we had to find out though- this was not something that could be ignored, and in good conscience, she had to tell me that it could be something more serious.
Of course I know it is stress related. I haven’t even allowed myself to think that it could be cancer- that happens to other people. I have my ultrasound tomorrow- Wednesday afternoon, and I should know something by Friday-hopefully sooner.
As I sit here finishing up our taxes, I find my mind wandering to that place I don’t want it to go- to the what-if’s. What if this isn’t just stress, an odd shaped thyroid, or a harmless bump? What if I am the third person my doctor has found thyroid cancer in? What am I going to do?
I hope I don’t have to answer these questions, and my heart goes out to everyone who has had to answer them. I never thought much about it, until that other person could be me.
Please send any healing thoughts you can my way, and I appreciate all the support I have received from my family and friends. I will be sure to write an update once I know.