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“Mom It’s Not Right!”

In light of the national media frenzy on Paris Hilton and the never- ending jail saga during the last week, I just had to share this wonderful, refreshing, interesting, and finally-someone-has-the-guts-to-say-it commentary on the situation and the larger issues at play here, by Jamie Lee Curtis (yes, the mother and the actress). 

I think this goes beyond Paris Hilton, to the current attitudes, sadly, a lot of parents have towards their children, and what can happen when parents forget they are *parents*, and their children are children, teen-agers, and young adults, but NOT adults.  

It seems like there are so many parents who try so hard to be their minor children’s friends, don’t want to upset their children, give them anything and everything they want, so their children will like them and or won’t be mad at them, on, and on, and on, they have forgotten that their children are NOT equals, and they need parental guidance in their lives.  My children will have friends- they need Joe and I to be their parents

I can’t count how many times I ‘hated’ my parents for having rules and regulations.  Even though I thought they were the meanest, strictest, and most old-fashioned parents out there, it wasn’t until I was *older* (dare I say, I might have even been an adult?) before it dawned on me that they were ‘mean’ because they loved me.  They had rules to teach me reality and responsibility.  I had to work for most of the things I wanted, from about the age of 13.  My mom let me use her car, when I stared driving, if she didn’t need it, but I didn’t have my own car, until I saved up and bought it myself when I was 20, and it was 11 years old, when I bought it. 

But, I earned every dime to pay for it, and it taught me the value of work, saving for something, and money- traits I still have today.  My parents wanted to know who my friends were, insisted on meeting them, gave me strict curfews, much earlier than any other kids my age, and guess what? I grew up, and still love my parents today-imagine that!  Yes, my parents made mistakes, and were not perfect, but my three siblings and I agree that we turned out ‘pretty well.’

A few weeks ago I got a real eye-opener, as I was walking by the high school in my neighborhood when school let out.   When did 16, 17, & 18 year-olds start driving more expensive cars, trucks, and SUV’s than what working adults drive? (Let me say that this high school is one of the lowest income high schools in the district-about 50% of the kids are on the reduced / free lunch program.)   Heck, we couldn’t even afford an old beater truck to replace the one from Joe’s car accident with out taking on additional debt, but yet, every other vehicle I saw was a custom 4X4 pick-up truck decked out with every imaginable feature and accesory.  Seriously, there wasn’t a truck worth less than $20,000 that peeled out of the parking lot, as I was walking by.

Some of these kids probably have part-time jobs, but come on- part time jobs for high school kids, don’t pay that kind of money.  Obviously the parents of these kids are helping finance these cars and trucks, and I just couldn’t help but wonder, to what cost?  What kind of adults are we going to have in 10 years, when all these kids get handed expensive cars, the latest cell phones, IPods (I still don’t have an IPod), Blackberry’s, HDTV in their bedrooms, the latest $500 video game systems, cameras, and all the latest fashions- ranging from $150 jeans to $200 hairstyles?

I think this ‘Paris Hilton Syndrome’ is a much larger reflection on what will be happening to a lot of these children, when that day of reckoning comes for them- the day Dad and Mom CAN’T bail them out anymore. (Notice I didn’t say won’t bail them out, because it seems like these types of parents will always bail out their children as long as they can.) 

Of course, their rock-bottom moment won’t be captured in a national and world media stage, but when these children realize the world is a place with rules, and responsibilities, and there are consequences for their actions and no one Dad and Mom won’t be around to ‘save’ them, the tragedy is in that moment, they will realize that their parent’s have failed them on the most basic level.

No wonder Paris Hilton broke down as she realized she would have to go back to jail!   It isn’t right she was failed in this way, and it isn’t right ANY child gets failed in this regard, but countless of them do, in every town in America-they do.  If you don’t believe me, just drive by your local high school when school is out.

In case you didn’t hit the link to Jamie Lee Curtis’s commentary at the beginning of the post, here is the entire piece:

As the denouement of a really upsetting celebrity scandal came to its close, a tearful child pleaded to her mother… “Mom, it’s not right.”

 

It was a painful episode to watch. A young woman, begging her mother, the person who should have taught her right from wrong, to help her, to teach her the rules of life. It was a little too late. And so she wept as the Universe was bringing the teaching and settling the score.

I’m in no glass house. I understand only too well the pitfalls of maternal amnesia and denial. I am not throwing stones but merely a lifesaver, a buoy of sanity and understanding.

“My analyst told me, that I was right out of my head,” Joni Mitchell sang in the song “Twisted.” I was twisted. I am twisted. I am deluded that my attempts at being liked and loved by my children and friends with them — all at the same time — were going to result in “well raised children.” We were the generation that would take the job of raising our children and turn it into… PARENTING. We were the generation who applauded every move they made. Every step they took. “Good climbing, Brandon” was our hue and cry. We were raised by people who didn’t “understand” us and now we don’t “understand” why our children are so messed up.

It is a national epidemic. Omnipotent children running amok or sitting amok as they watch TV and play electronic games and shop on eBay.

The sad paths of the three most popular young women — privileged but from varying backgrounds, talented, beautiful and spectacular — have ended in prison, rehab and mental illness. I hope their mothers are worried sick and wondering, “What could I have done differently?” And our culture should be asking the same question too.

What we need to do is look long and hard at our part in all this. Where did our children get the message that the rules don’t apply to them? And where did we, the Mothers, get the message that if we abdicate our responsibilities as Mothers, the Universe will do our job for us? And it does, but without any of the love and tenderness and compassion that we could have given, along with the lessons.

Now it’s just the cold hard facts of a jail cell or the emptiness of a rehab room.

I’m not pointing fingers. I’m asking questions.

Can we take the wrenching sight of Paris asking her mother, “why?” and ask it of ourselves?

My analyst told me this: “Children are paparazzi. They take your picture mentally when you don’t want them to, when you don’t look good, and show it back to you in their behavior.”

Let’s hope that we all learn what is RIGHT and what is so WRONG.

Wake up, Mothers and smell the denial.

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Best Friends

Today I am under the weather with a stomach bug, and I told Ryan this morning, I needed him to be extra good today, because mama was sick.

He was just perfect, which was so nice.  He played with Cole almost all day, with no hitting, biting, pushing, or other tactics usually employed to make Cole cry.

As I was struggling through, trying to make them lunch, Ryan was playing patty-cake with Cole, who was just adoring the attention his big brother was giving him.  After they were done playing, Ryan said, “Mama, Coley is my best friend,” as he gave him a sweet little hug.  Cole’s eyes lit up, and he was all smiles.

It doesn’t get much better than that, but when my dad stopped by for a short visit this afternoon, he told him as well, that Coley is his best friend.

Motherhood sure has a way of surprising you- I guess after a year of telling Ryan not to hurt his brother, and constantly hearing, “Mom, Cole has my toys,- you need to take Cole away,” something has clicked, and now this little baby, who had upset Ryan’s world so much, is now his “best friend.” 

Even though I am sick and it has been a hard day, just these few little words, has made it one of the best days.

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Ina May Gaskin

Tonight I got to hear “The Greatest Midwife in the World”, Ina May Gaskin, speak for two hours.  She was amazing, and had wonderful things to say about birth, how she became a midwife, her birthing experiences as a mother and as a midwife, breastfeeding, and parenting.

I read one of her books, “Ina May’s Guide to Childbirth,” when I was pregnant with Cole, and it affirmed my desire to attempt a VBAC (vaginal birth after a Cesarean) with Cole.   The book was so powerful for me, in helping me realize that my body knew what to do, and I didn’t need to be afraid of childbirth.  I used some of what I read by her, while I was birthing Cole, and I know it helped me have a successful VBAC.

It was an honor to hear her speak, and I even got to chat with her for a few minutes afterwards, and got her autograph!  I feel like a birth groupie.

My friend, Amy, wrote a very nice piece on Ina May today, on her blog, so if you want to find out more about Ina May, and some of her background, visit Amy’s blog

If you are pregnant, do yourself a favor, and at least read, “Ina May’s Guide to Childbirth.”  I guarantee you will find something in there that will help you feel more confident and in control of your birthing experience, as well as learn amazing and wonderful things about your body, and how childbirth works.  She has a wonderful tone and approach and reading the book is almost like chatting with a very experienced friend, who has been through it, and can tell you anything you need to know.  I enjoyed the book so much, I read it in two hours.  You won’t regret reading it. 

In my opinion, they should make this mandatory reading for every teen-age girl in school, so future generations of girls / women will understand how their bodies work, and this will start the process of changing the attitude that birth is a medical emergency, and also take the fear out of childbirth. 

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Virginia Tech Massacre

Yesterday’s mass murder of 32 innocent people, at Virginia Tech, has left me feeling very sad, confused, and horrified.  Unfortunately, these shooting sprees are becoming too common and this seems like salt on an open wound, in light of the eighth anniversary of the Columbine shootings, this week.

I saw in the paper today, that even the previous shooting that claimed the most lives (prior to Monday at VT), was in a Luby’s Cafeteria in Texas, in 1991, where 24 people died.  I barely remember that- and it seemed like such a random, out of the ordinary event.  Somewhere in those 16 years, deadly shootings have sadly moved from the extra-ordinary to the ordinary.  I don’t think I am being overly pessimistic thinking it is not a matter of if the next one will occur, it is when, and how many more innocent people will die?

Something dawned on me today, and I realized that it seems like all the mass murder shootings (at least as many as I can recall) have all been male.  From the Luby’s Cafeteria shooting, to Jonesboro, AK to Columbine, to the Native American school shooting in WI, to the Bailey, CO shooting, to the Amish school shooting in PA.  Sadly, there are many more, and the underlying factor in these horrific events is the shooter and shooters have all been male.

As a mother of two young sons, that terrifies me.  As I laid my sweet, innocent, 11 month-old-baby boy, down to sleep tonight, I couldn’t help but think of all these boys, young men, and men, who go from being  sweet innocent babies, to  mass murderers.  How does one go from being one to the other, and when does it happen?  Did their parents notice a change?  Was it one event, like being constantly bullied, or a series of events, that finally make them “snap”?  Did they not have any one or any place to turn?  Why did they feel like killing innocent people were their only options?

Obviously, these are questions that cannot be answered definitively.  It does seem that most of these killers felt bullied, isolated, depressed, and had personal problems. I am in no way excusing or justifying their actions, but it does seem like a partial failure of our society, that these individuals felt like there was no other option. 

This led me to another thought- surely girls in our society have these feelings and problems as well- what is different in that so far (knock on wood) girls haven’t resorted to mass murder as an answer for these problems? 

Do we treat girls different than boys?  Is it more acceptable in our society for girls to cry, act out, talk about their feelings, show emotions, while we expect our boys (consciously and unconsciously), to “tough it out,” “be a man,” don’t share their feelings, “keep it to yourself.”  If we have a girl come to us crying, because she is being bullied or picked on in school, do we lend a more sympathetic ear, and try to intervene more, then when and if a boy tells us he is being bullied, do we chalk it up to “boys will be boys,” and tell him to work it out?  Do boys even get to this point, where they talk about problems they are having, or do they fear sharing these problems with their family? Have we conditioned boys from early on, to suppress their “feminine” emotions and feelings?

I am no psychologist, or sociologist, but there is a reason why we haven’t been seeing females resorting to mass murders.  I suspect it is a variety of reasons- maybe boys see and play more violent video games and movies than girls in general.  I really believe there is something to be said for becoming desensitised to violence.  Maybe in our society, where it is not encouraged for boys to talk about their feelings, they are getting the message, that it is acceptable to hurt others if you are not happy, and in extreme cases, acting out the violence they see.

As a parent, I just wish there were more answers than questions.  There are never any guarantees that your children will never be hurt, or end up with problems, despite your best efforts.  I just hope that Joe and I can foster in our sons, an environment where they do feel safe, and secure expressing their feelings, and know that we will never think less of them if they need to cry, yell, or express what is inside of them.  Everyone needs to do that.  It makes me think of a  quote by Gloria Steinem, which says,

     “We’ve begun to raise our daughters more like our sons…but few have the courage to raise our sons more like our daughters.”

For some reason, this has a bit of hope for me, in that maybe just maybe, if our sons feel it is safe to express their feelings, they will always have a safe place, and non-judgemental place to fall- perhaps just this small thing can make a difference.

My family sends our condolences to all the victims’ families and friends, affected by this awful tragedy, especially parents who have lost their child- My heart goes out to all of you.

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Small Miracles and other Triumphs

Everything in the universe must be aligned right today, because in addition to Maelin finally starting to nurse, I had two other triumphs today.

The first one was after dinner, I was cleaning up, and Joe was on the computer trying to do some car research (no, we still haven’t bought a replacement car yet), and Cole kept crawling in the kitchen, tugging on my leg.  I just wanted to clean up quickly, so I carried Cole into the living room, and asked Ryan to play nicely with Cole.  I went back to the kitchen, and after a few minutes, I realized I hadn’t heard any crying, screaming, whining, or, “Mommy, Cole is bugging me-make him STOP!”

I popped my head around the corner, and Ryan and Cole were at their play kitchen, with Ryan showing Cole how the oven door opened, the sink worked, and giving him play pots and pans to hold.  Cole was delighted his brother was playing with him!   I about fainted.  I called Joe over, and we both stood there in awe for a few moments watching our two little boys, actually being brothers, and enjoying each other. 

I would have gladly settled for just that one, but I guess the “God of Small Miracles” was smiling on me today!  After having 10 1/2 months of sleep issues with Cole, I was nursing him to sleep tonight, like I always do, and after about five minutes, he started squirming and trying to roll over like he does when he is in his crib.  Normally, when I place him in his crib, he squirms, and usually fusses for a while, and I have to pat him on the back, and hold his hand until he finally falls asleep.  So with him squirming in my arms, I wondered what would happen if I put him in his crib?  I had to find out!

I set him down in the crib, still awake, he rolled over, and WENT TO SLEEP!  No crying, fussing, or screaming, or having me pat him to sleep.  I am not so naive to think this will be the norm now, but I’ll take it when I can. 

These small triumphs are like little gifts- after months and months, of doing the same thing over and over and over, and saying the same things, over and over, and over, it is like something has clicked and makes me realize my boys are responding to what I tell them and what I do for them.  It is like a paycheck- a paycheck in mothering, that all your efforts are starting to pay off.  I see a glimpse of the future in these moments, and it helps me to gear up for another day, which no doubt will have plenty of crying, screaming, whining, and, “Mommy, Cole is bugging me-make him STOP,” but until then, I’ll savor these small miracles.